The Target

Sometimes those you love the most

Can cut the deepest part

They're the only one that could

Annihilate your heart

The cruelest thing to do

To violate your trust

So cold & unforgiving

Not loving & not just

It leaves you in a state of shock

Confused by what they did

Such hate & such disgust for you

So carefully they hid

Did you deserve what they have done

Some cosmic debt to pay

For something unforgivable

You did along the way

You think you've done nothing wrong

Not once that you recall

No unkind words or harm to them

Not one thing, not at all

You may always wonder why

But you will never know

Why they made you the target

For the ugliness they show

Had Enough

It breaks my heart to say this

In ways you'll never know

But I have had enough of you

Its time for you to go

Longer than some hours

Much longer than a day

Find a place thats all your own

And then go there & stay

Dont come back around me

Cant take it anymore

Dont call me on the phone

And dont come to my door

No texts or Facebook messages

Dont want to hear a word

I've had enough & hurt enough

From all that has occured

Out of your mind, lost control

Dont want to see your face

I raised you right but all you've done

Has left me in disgrace

It hurts too much when you're around

But you laugh at my pain

Cant take any more from you

Or I will go insane

Cant believe what you've become

You're heartless, cruel & mean

The names Im called, the things you say

So ugly theyre obscene

You act like this is my fault

Like I'm the one to blame

But all the lies you tell of me

My character defamed

Don't think I can forgive you

For all you've put me through

Don't get me wrong I love my son

But truly do hate you

Jewel of the Sky

 So tiny, incredible jewel of the sky

I'm mesmerized each time

You catch my eye

Elegant perfection

Each move that you make

Your magical skills

I never could fake

And ooohhh all the colors

Sparkle with light

A shimmery rainbow

A breathtaking sight

Without all of that 

I'm nothing like you

So my wildest dreams

Will never come true

The best I can do

Add color to me

All bright just like you

Not nearly as free

So I pull your trick

Use colors most bright

To show I adore you

You're such a delight

Wish I could be like you

But better this way

So I get to smile

When I see you each day

My Globe

You didnt just shake the snowglobe of my life

You didnt just start a blizzard

     in my world

     in my mind

     in my heart

You flung it to shatter into millions of pieces

     on the floor

     at my feet

Shards of glass, mixed

     with water

     fake snow

     painted faces on tiny figures

Shattered everywhere

All over me

     all over the floor

       all over the walls

         all over my world

Leaving it a mess

     leaving me a mess

Now I grieve..'

     I grieve for what I was

     I grieve for what IT was

     or what I perceived it to be

In my globe all was pretty

In my globe all was calm & quiet

In my globe all was safe

In my globe it was a little bit cold......,

     sometimes

Now its in pieces on the floor

     with no chance of repair

What do I do without my globe

What do I do with all the pieces

The pieces of my security

The pieces of my safety

The pieces I will never be able to find

The pieces that will never fit together

     again

No matter how much time

No matter how much skill

No matter how much glue

It will never be whole again

Only the scattered mess I see all over the floor

How could you do such a thing

Why would you do such a thing

In the heat of the moment you sentenced me

     to an eternity of this

All shattered & scattered as though I was nothing & 

     meant nothing to begin with

Nothing of beauty

Nothing of value or worth

A mess.....

     unidentifiable to all but me

     because no one else

     ever saw it whole

Now its just a pile

     swept into a dustpan

     emptied into the trash

Now that there is no globe

     is there a me

Yes, but not the same one

That one went out

     with my globe

     into the trash

You know, sometimes it was

     a little cold

     in my globe

     but.....

Its so much colder out here!! 

Betrayed & Abandoned

It's time you hear me, deny all you want

But this is past due for stopping the haunt

Was barely a baby so how could I know

That you would betray me & leave me so low

You messed it up badly, did nothing you should

Ignored every signal each chance that you could

I needed a hero to save me that pain

If I said a word you'de call me insane

So I was the lamb & got all the worst

Ready, if questioned, my answers rehearsed

I suffered for years while you wore a smile

Acted oblivious, in complete denial

Lived in a nightmare with no end in sight

In fear & on guard every day, every night

He suffered some damage from that place over there

Then dumped it on me so cold & unfair

When I fell asleep, wished I wouldnt wake

Until this was over, make no mistake

How could you forsake me, you threw me away

To suffer in silence, much to my dismay

I remember it all, I'll never forget

After years of hard work, not free of it yet

Said you didnt know but how could you not

Ignored me completely, in pain & distraught

Meant nothing to you, you made that quite clear

What I wanted to do was just disappear

When it came to light, the lie bubble burst

Was my fault, somehow, so at me you cursed

You called me such names that cut to my core

Some that I'd never heard of before

After that day it was never the same

Because, in your eyes, I carried the blame

Now you seem confused why I'm done with you

It's just too much damage to ever undo 

Hatchling

Oh that sudden fall, from on high to earth

Unfortunate thing, so soon after birth

Bare pink, you're so fragile, cant live on your own

So tiny, what happened, why are you alone

The beauty you are, that others dont see 

I can see clearly, you're perfect to me

Your spirit called out, my heart took you in

I loved you to life, thats where we begin

I nourish your body & feed you my light

So your soul will thrive & one day take flight

How quickly you change, your feathers appear

As our bond grows deeper & I hold you dear

How hard it will be for me to let go

But want you to soar cuz I love you so

And then that day comes, you're ready to fly

Such beauty & strength that none would deny

Sunrise

In your darkest hours, on your darkest night

I will scatter stars so you can see their light

Then I'll pull up the moon as full as it can be

And let your eyes adjust so you can start to see

And then, when you're ready, I'll bring out the sun

To show you your path clearly, your journeys just begun 

2020: The Nightmare

Up comes the sun like each day before

Start this new year & open the door

So whats my resolve, that list so long

Whatever I choose I start this year strong

People all over are doing the same

Love or success, fortune or fame

Dont see it coming or where it'll go

But it will disrupt all that we know

Discord begins all over the place

Up in arms over the issues we face

Employment, religion, health, love & fun

Government chaos it's all overrun

Distrust & anger, none can agree

Our leader is crazy just listen to me

Walla to go up, troops still at war

People distressed, it's hard to ignore

United We Stand means little today

Can't trust our leader, its us they betray

So many have died with no end in sight

Resist rules & masks, all out of spite

Fingers are pointed, so many blamed

Protests & riots, landmarks renamed

The world has gone crazy, civility dead

False information, so many misled

It's reaching a peak & needs to stop now

Gone far beyond what we should allow

Seen more this year than 20 years past

Caught unaware, it happened so fast

It's reaching an end, about to burn out

Spiritual energies, soon to reroute

Then we can regain some level of peace

So all the upheaval will finally decrease

Hold on a bit longer then we can breathe

And focus on what we all can achieve

Then peace can return to where it belongs

So we can begin to right all the wrongs

Bee King

Gentlest soul I've known on earth

No treasure fine could match his worth

Carpenter, gardener, beekeeper, too

Moral fiber strong & true

Two roles now he's put aside

Third one, though, fulfills with pride

It's one so few could ever do

Might even hurt them badly too

But, him, the bees have learned to trust

Mutual respect a must

Shared a bond so many years

That now they even share his tears

They swarm to him & sing their song

Tell him, with them he does belong

And though they'll always need their queen

Here is something never seen

I understand the song they sing

It names him as their first bee king

It promises all will soon be well

And on his pain he should'nt dwell

Faith tells me that he will heal

Find a way through this ordeal

Then peace again he'll finally know

And honey, once again, will flow

Much, Much

So many years have slipped away

More days & hours passed

Where did they go & where was I

It all happened so fast

The happiest memories I treasure the most

And still put a smile on my face

Are those you created with all that you did

And nothing will ever replace

You always had gum & candy & such

Plus all of the things that you baked

You chipped all the glue from those fake fingernails

No matter how thick or how caked

I made a man of cardboard that time

With his own guitar & chair

I forgot about him but you sure didnt

I'll bet you hes still sitting there

Such pride in your eyes that none could mistake

So abundant it near overflowed

Amazed & impressed with all that I did

Your heart, soul & face clearly glowed

You never lost patience & never did shout

Never glared or frowned down on me

Just dished out so very much love & affection

And all unconditionally

Your hands were so soft & smelled so sweet

Like petals from fresh fragrant flowers

I still smell it now, a smile on my face

The feeling can linger for hours

They say there are angels that walk here on earth

If you look you might see them around

Im sure that you're one though I never saw wings

And a halo your head never crowned

So dont ever think for one single second

That I havent thought about you

My love & my prayers are with you so often

You're with me in all that I do

Those memories are jewels so priceless to me

Every hug, every kiss, every touch

And though I'm not there to tell you myself

Just know that I love you much, much

 

Weird

Weird is not a bad thing, never a bad thing

Weird is one-of-a-kind & no other person, 

     weird or not

     is my kind of weird

     but all weird people

     blend together so beautifully

     almost magically

Weird is unique, yet still

     weird is comforting

     encouraging & bonding

Weird is a talent, a power,

     a freedom, a heavenly gift

     from God Himself

Weird is a beautiful, colorful,

     happy, intelligent,

     never-ending adventure

     into the great unknown

Weird is enthusiastically

     sharing your weird

     with other weirdos &

     gladly accepting &

     applauding their weirdness & 

     the weirdness grows & expands &

     opens its arms to more weirdness.

So........

If Im called weird I smile happily.

I am not insulted because

     THAT would be weird

Im a Poet Today

I remember Kindergarten

We took a trip nearby

 "Write a poem about something...

       The trees, the pond, the sky"

I wrote about a great big rock

On which, someone could sit

Thinking back about it now

It was cute, I must admit

It wasnt till my teenage years

That I wrote something new

About the man who stole my heart

The first love that I knew

Once again, the years went by

Before it crossed my mind

But as I wrote more & more

It became more refined

I learned for me to write more

I had to feel down deep

So happy I could laugh out loud

Or sad enough to weep

Along the way I learned how

To write without extremes

Didnt think I'd get this far

Not in my wildest dreams

As I matured, my writing did too

Saw much along the way

And all of that is what made me

The poet I  am today

 

Unbelievable

Its gone so wrong, how could it be?

You were just right next to me

But now you're gone I dont know why

Though its a fact I cant deny

I keep hoping its not real

Its just not true, this whole ordeal

Now im trapped in a broken shell

The pain so deep it feels like hell

You were my all & all I knew

You loved me so & I loved you

I thought we had more time for this

Just one more hug & one more kiss

So how could this be how it ends

So much sadness now descends

No matter what theres no way back

And no 'Do-Over' fade to black

So I must say goodbye for now

We'll meet again & that i vow      

As Long As I Live

Once again the pen in my hand is taking me back to the day

Before we met, before the night you took all my gladness away

I was once free, independent & strong before you brought darkness & rain

Every new morning bright with new life then you came w lies & such pain

It may take a while to regain all the good like recovery from a disease

But I will survive & purge my hearts ache like dipping a dog for his fleas

How you treated me mostly was cruel & uncaring, you were stingy & selfish & rude

The kindness & love I extended to you only fueled your bad attitude

You only show kindness to those around when favors you need to have done

You seem to get pleasure from doing so, thats a sick definition of fun

Now the only emotions I have to share are negative, ugly & mean

You wont recognize the woman you face, my opinion of you is obscene

I,ll never forget this & never forgive, I dont want to see you again

I dont want to talk or be your friend. This is one you're not going to win

If you call out of guilt, concern or closure with "Im sorry" or "please forgive"

You'll waste your time & Ill hate your guts, at least for as long as I live!!

Do-Over

Destruction & chaos, it's all out of whack

Like it or not, there's no going back

There's only one way & thats straight ahead

Theres nothing left here, start over instead

With everything lost, all taken away

Just rubble & ash, its all in decay

Without warning, no chance to prepare

Now try to get through this living nightmare

And it wont be easy, this challenge I face

With all of the things I have to replace

Im burdened by doubt, by pain & by fear

With so much to do & so much unclear

Things that will free me from a pit of despair

Are the power of faith & the power of prayer

So I bow my head & call out His name

No need for delay & no need for shame

He touches my heart & knows what i need

With Him on my side, I know I'll succeed 

The Power of One

So young & naive, in with the wrong crowd

She just wanted out but wasnt allowed

So one day she ran & thought she was free

But she was betrayed so none heard her plea

They found her so fast, dragged out by her hair

Her head full of lumps & patches left bare

Thrown into a car & onto the floor

Pinned down by his feet, he called her a whore

She feared for her life & thought she might die

Her face in the floor, she started to cry

She called out to God & started to pray

For Him to protect her without a delay

Just then there were sirens, her prayers had been heard

And she had survived all she had endured

Then it was all over & they were in jail

They should have been taught that good will prevail

She prayed once again, with thanks in her heart

For getting a chance to make a new start 

One Night Stand

He tells you what you need to hear

He pulls you close & holds you near

Then your eyes meet & your hearts race

He won you with that first embrace

You know it's only for one night

Dont question if it's wrong or right

Your passions burn & bodies ache

Tuned into him you give & take

You share a night of breathless lust

No talk of love, no thoughts of trust

The only sounds that fill the air

Are those of passion you clearly share

You kiss his lips & smell his skin

You wish this night would never end

The hours pass then morning breaks

The fire quenched, your body shakes

You truly wish that he would say

You're rare enough to make him stay

Then every night you two would share

The kind of lust most never dare

But say goodbye & let him go

Must never let your feelings show

For if you let those feelings out

He will know your fear & doubt

He will see your image shatter

You'll pretend it doesnt matter

Bite your tongue, dont let him hear

Your need for him, fight back a tear

Vulnerable is not your style

Choke it back & force a smile

A kiss goodbye is now the end

Cast desires to the wind

Turn away, ignore the chill

Alone again & empty still

Me & My Boys

Rise & shine, get dressed for school

Behave yourselves, don't act a fool

Where's your homework, you forgot?

Well, he can play but you cannot

Go clean your room then you can play

Once all your things are put away

Now go outside, stay in the yard

I've told you not to hit so hard

It's time to eat, come get your plate

T.V. & games will have to wait

Quiet down, will you sit still

Before you make your Koolaid spill

Go take a bath, wash everywhere

And dont forget, brush teeth & hair

Don't talk like that & must you yell?

Leave that alone! Hey, what's that smell?

Both of you clean up that mess

Since neither one will confess

It's tickle time & here I come!

Ok, who dropped the wad of gum

Its time for bed, turn out the light

I love you both, sweet dreams, goodnight

You're safe & sound, there is no ghost

I love you more. I love you most

Before I know it, they"ll be gone

In the world, on your own

Me & my boys, day in, day out

This is what lifes all about

Ingratitude

A friend is a friend, no matter what

There, always, forever, but

Taken for granted soon you'll find

No longer there when you're in a bind

Once you make them feel abused

They reach a point they won't be used

A person only takes so much

Before it seems they're just your crutch

Then suddenly they'll turn away 

Your little games no longer play

Recognize this fact, my friend

Before this thing abruptly ends

For once it does theres no return

A lonely lesson you will learn

Each of us will feel a loss

And nevermore our paths will cross