Took The Lesson

You really do suck in the worst possible way

But hid it so well much to my dismay

For nearly two decades ignorantly bliss

But nearing the end felt something amiss

Was it paranoia or did I see clear

You used me so much year after year

But I saw the light & your colors too

I saw this before oh yes deja vu

I wish I was wrong but I never am

And suddenly see its all been a sham

Now my mind goes through every move, every word

All the days, all the nights every memory obscurred

It seems so unreal, its just a bad dream

Or something I saw, who posted that meme

You were the person I trusted the most

Then that mean little jab you slipped in that post

Then there are times Im left in a daze

This cannot be real it feels like a maze

I said it before more than once more than twice

Stop being so mean when I deserve nice

Now I notice the space where you were before

But dont have the urge to open that door

Theres nothing left there to find or to see

Left all that behind took the lesson with me