Friday, August 30, 2024

Took The Lesson

You really do suck in the worst possible way

But hid it so well much to my dismay

For nearly two decades ignorantly bliss

But nearing the end felt something amiss

Was it paranoia or did I see clear

You used me so much year after year

But I saw the light & your colors too

I saw this before oh yes deja vu

I wish I was wrong but I never am

And suddenly see its all been a sham

Now my mind goes through every move, every word

All the days, all the nights every memory obscurred

It seems so unreal, its just a bad dream

Or something I saw, who posted that meme

You were the person I trusted the most

Then that mean little jab you slipped in that post

Then there are times Im left in a daze

This cannot be real it feels like a maze

I said it before more than once more than twice

Stop being so mean when I deserve nice

Now I notice the space where you were before

But dont have the urge to open that door

Theres nothing left there to find or to see

Left all that behind took the lesson with me

Apart Once Again

Can hardly believe it but sadly it's true
You're not the same person I thought I once knew
It happened so slowly that you couldnt see
And I tried so hard to make you hear me
But you tuned me out I couldnt get through
So sadly I watched the chaos ensue
You've said things & done things that just arent you
Become someone else but I dont know who
Been watching it happen while breaking my heart
Now its gone so far its torn us apart
I've been by your side through thick & through thin
Defended your honor again & again
Whatever you needed I gave if I could
Now theres nothing left no bad & no good
So I must let go of all that has been
And deal with the losses of what we shared then

Too Soon

You've gone too soon & gone too far

Although we know just where you are

Cant hold your hand or hug you tight

But I will think of you tonight

A ray of light that made me smile

I loved to sit & talk a while

So full of faith so full of grace

The warmest smile that lovely face

You may be gone but you're still near

You live in all your love ones here

Your work is done rest well my friend

At least until we meet again 

Together

I want to be one of an unbeatable team
The kind that will never let go of the dream
To know that no matter what I may do
The other will be there steady & true
Then no one & nothing could stand in our way
We'd face all together & together we'd stay
To know that security would be the best gift
My heart, soul & spirit would feel a great lift
Never again would I have to doubt
Or wonder whatever "we" might be about
It would be written all over your face
Every drop of "unsure" would completely erase
We'd never again need to argue or fight
Somehow it would flow & turn out alright
Committed to each the other would be
Accepting of all unconditionally
I'd give all I have to see that come true
Your all to me my all to you

Enlightenment

Im quickly becoming the new self to be

Obvious clarity in all that I see

Unlike before so shallow my sight

Now the whole world is bathed in new light

No use denying or turning away

This tool disguised as a game that I play

Reaches the innermost  depths of my soul

Showing me what is to be my new role

With it comes peace & ultimate bliss

All falls in place now nothing amiss

People I touch & read as I can

Perfectly fit into the big plan

So little effort is needed somehow

I do as Im asked instinctively now

My eyes are open my soul is set free

With one simple message....

               "Love is the key" 

 

Great Dog

I know that it hurts to lose what you love
But hes now at peace in heaven above
With no more to hurt & nothing in pain
No need for a collar, a fence or a chain
He'll never be hungry & never have fleas
With wide open spaces & plenty of trees
Up there he is free to play & to run
And do all the things that dogs think are fun
He hasnt gone far although you're apart
No matter what happens he lives in your heart
And though you may miss him & you may feel sad
You'll never forget the great dog that you had

A Labor Of Love

Mothers are rarely permitted to rest
From dawn til dusk we are put to the test
We question ourselves & worry about
How well we're doing theres always a doubt
Is it ever enough or sometimes too much
We not only discipline but heal with a touch
We are questioned & tested & pushed to our end
But no matter what on us they depend
At times it can feel like theres no more to give
At others we know they are why we still live
Planned or surprises theyre sent from above
No matter how hard its a labor of love

Wednesday, August 28, 2024

New for me

 this is a brand new experience for me. never done a blog or anything else. lets see how this goes.....