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Friday, November 15, 2024

The Target

Sometimes those you love the most

Can cut the deepest part

They're the only one that could

Annihilate your heart

The cruelest thing to do

To violate your trust

So cold & unforgiving

Not loving & not just

It leaves you in a state of shock

Confused by what they did

Such hate & such disgust for you

So carefully they hid

Did you deserve what they have done

Some cosmic debt to pay

For something unforgivable

You did along the way

You think you've done nothing wrong

Not once that you recall

No unkind words or harm to them

Not one thing, not at all

You may always wonder why

But you will never know

Why they made you the target

For the ugliness they show

Had Enough

It breaks my heart to say this

In ways you'll never know

But I have had enough of you

Its time for you to go

Longer than some hours

Much longer than a day

Find a place thats all your own

And then go there & stay

Dont come back around me

Cant take it anymore

Dont call me on the phone

And dont come to my door

No texts or Facebook messages

Dont want to hear a word

I've had enough & hurt enough

From all that has occured

Out of your mind, lost control

Dont want to see your face

I raised you right but all you've done

Has left me in disgrace

It hurts too much when you're around

But you laugh at my pain

Cant take any more from you

Or I will go insane

Cant believe what you've become

You're heartless, cruel & mean

The names Im called, the things you say

So ugly theyre obscene

You act like this is my fault

Like I'm the one to blame

But all the lies you tell of me

My character defamed

Don't think I can forgive you

For all you've put me through

Don't get me wrong I love my son

But truly do hate you

Jewel of the Sky

 So tiny, incredible jewel of the sky

I'm mesmerized each time

You catch my eye

Elegant perfection

Each move that you make

Your magical skills

I never could fake

And ooohhh all the colors

Sparkle with light

A shimmery rainbow

A breathtaking sight

Without all of that 

I'm nothing like you

So my wildest dreams

Will never come true

The best I can do

Add color to me

All bright just like you

Not nearly as free

So I pull your trick

Use colors most bright

To show I adore you

You're such a delight

Wish I could be like you

But better this way

So I get to smile

When I see you each day

My Globe

You didnt just shake the snowglobe of my life

You didnt just start a blizzard

     in my world

     in my mind

     in my heart

You flung it to shatter into millions of pieces

     on the floor

     at my feet

Shards of glass, mixed

     with water

     fake snow

     painted faces on tiny figures

Shattered everywhere

All over me

     all over the floor

       all over the walls

         all over my world

Leaving it a mess

     leaving me a mess

Now I grieve..'

     I grieve for what I was

     I grieve for what IT was

     or what I perceived it to be

In my globe all was pretty

In my globe all was calm & quiet

In my globe all was safe

In my globe it was a little bit cold......,

     sometimes

Now its in pieces on the floor

     with no chance of repair

What do I do without my globe

What do I do with all the pieces

The pieces of my security

The pieces of my safety

The pieces I will never be able to find

The pieces that will never fit together

     again

No matter how much time

No matter how much skill

No matter how much glue

It will never be whole again

Only the scattered mess I see all over the floor

How could you do such a thing

Why would you do such a thing

In the heat of the moment you sentenced me

     to an eternity of this

All shattered & scattered as though I was nothing & 

     meant nothing to begin with

Nothing of beauty

Nothing of value or worth

A mess.....

     unidentifiable to all but me

     because no one else

     ever saw it whole

Now its just a pile

     swept into a dustpan

     emptied into the trash

Now that there is no globe

     is there a me

Yes, but not the same one

That one went out

     with my globe

     into the trash

You know, sometimes it was

     a little cold

     in my globe

     but.....

Its so much colder out here!! 

Betrayed & Abandoned

It's time you hear me, deny all you want

But this is past due for stopping the haunt

Was barely a baby so how could I know

That you would betray me & leave me so low

You messed it up badly, did nothing you should

Ignored every signal each chance that you could

I needed a hero to save me that pain

If I said a word you'de call me insane

So I was the lamb & got all the worst

Ready, if questioned, my answers rehearsed

I suffered for years while you wore a smile

Acted oblivious, in complete denial

Lived in a nightmare with no end in sight

In fear & on guard every day, every night

He suffered some damage from that place over there

Then dumped it on me so cold & unfair

When I fell asleep, wished I wouldnt wake

Until this was over, make no mistake

How could you forsake me, you threw me away

To suffer in silence, much to my dismay

I remember it all, I'll never forget

After years of hard work, not free of it yet

Said you didnt know but how could you not

Ignored me completely, in pain & distraught

Meant nothing to you, you made that quite clear

What I wanted to do was just disappear

When it came to light, the lie bubble burst

Was my fault, somehow, so at me you cursed

You called me such names that cut to my core

Some that I'd never heard of before

After that day it was never the same

Because, in your eyes, I carried the blame

Now you seem confused why I'm done with you

It's just too much damage to ever undo 

Thursday, November 14, 2024

Hatchling

Oh that sudden fall, from on high to earth

Unfortunate thing, so soon after birth

Bare pink, you're so fragile, cant live on your own

So tiny, what happened, why are you alone

The beauty you are, that others dont see 

I can see clearly, you're perfect to me

Your spirit called out, my heart took you in

I loved you to life, thats where we begin

I nourish your body & feed you my light

So your soul will thrive & one day take flight

How quickly you change, your feathers appear

As our bond grows deeper & I hold you dear

How hard it will be for me to let go

But want you to soar cuz I love you so

And then that day comes, you're ready to fly

Such beauty & strength that none would deny

Sunrise

In your darkest hours, on your darkest night

I will scatter stars so you can see their light

Then I'll pull up the moon as full as it can be

And let your eyes adjust so you can start to see

And then, when you're ready, I'll bring out the sun

To show you your path clearly, your journeys just begun